Hate to Love you

I can honestly say
I don't love anyone
at the moment

Or so I thought...

I thought I don't love you
I thought I never did
Yet how can I be so afraid of losing you
thou you aren't even mine?
How can I be so jealous?

Thou there's no way I'm ever gonna say it out loud...
For at the moment
I'm so mad at you I feel like I never wanna see you
ever again

Thou that's not really the truth
is it?

Every step takes us closer to the grave

It's really funny
how you can make me cry
thou you didn't even do anything wrong

For it was I who did
it was I who gave up
and I'm never going to get a fresh start

I wish you all the best
for I don't know how long will I be around

I'm already dying...