Hate to Love you

I can honestly say
I don't love anyone
at the moment

Or so I thought...

I thought I don't love you
I thought I never did
Yet how can I be so afraid of losing you
thou you aren't even mine?
How can I be so jealous?

Thou there's no way I'm ever gonna say it out loud...
For at the moment
I'm so mad at you I feel like I never wanna see you
ever again

Thou that's not really the truth
is it?